Embracing the Pain
health.. yes, health is often taken for granted.. "Health is Wealth"... sleepless night.. after comin home from what i thought was a happy fruitful, productive day, i was greeted by tiny, incoherent whimpers.. curiosity got the best of me so i searched the house, only to find my mother crying.. my tita san was still in surgery (which, originally should've been a partial hysterectomy, removin only her uterus).. they removed her ovaries too.. 7-hr surgery.. why?.. because crzy doctors misdiagnosed her & the cancer metastasized w/in the period of wait (oh ya, they didn't even know it was cancer till operation day).. it spread all over her body & she needs to undergo another operation in the near future & chemo also.. early in the week, i was hopin to get some studyin done on thursday, then i wacked myself on the head thinkin u selfish brat..
anyhow, the kids came home after the football game.. josh announced that ryan's team won, which made ryan throw a tantrum because he wanted to be the first to talk about their victory.. so all this drama rama after i told the boys about tita san.. & freakin ryan had the nerve to say so i don't care if she does.. what's important is that i won the game.. appalled.. selfish brat (i guess it runs in the family).. out of anger & w/out thinkin, i blurted out oh ya.. if u ever get cancer, let's see who's goin to care.. grrr...
to alleviate some pressure my mom was feelin, i asked if i can sleep over in the hospital & take care of tita san.. as my mom & i entered the room, we saw her frail, limp, skinny body.. i just couldn't bare to see her that way.. imagine havin ur reproductive organs removed.. a newly-wed who had hopes of building a family of her own.. down the drain.. it was obvious the doc didn't inform her of what they removed.. she attempted a feeble smile.. this family surely amazes me.. amidst all the problems we're facing, a smile to bring some joy to others would always be plastered on our faces.. after my mom told her the diagnosis, all she could think of was her husband, my tito jonathan.. so hard..
my night at the hospital was all right.. bein the thoughtful, selfless person that my tita san is, she made sure i was comfortable & doin fine.. when, in fact, it was my duty to care for her.. i made sure all her needs were met.. talked to the docs to get the real dish & hunt down the nurses for extra supplies she needed.. the whole night i contemplated.. no sleep.. mere reflections of life & where it's headed.. earlier on i had told my mother, mama, our bodies are only temporary vessels.. and she replied and that's why, anak.. we should offer it to God.. humble ourselves among other people.. and simply love... simply love.. yes, that's what we're called to do -- love God & others..
I'm going to stop procrastinating ... once I get around to it.
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Embracing the Pain
health.. yes, health is often taken for granted.. "Health is Wealth"... sleepless night.. after comin home from what i thought was a happy fruitful, productive day, i was greeted by tiny, incoherent whimpers.. curiosity got the best of me so i searched the house, only to find my mother crying.. my tita san was still in surgery (which, originally should've been a partial hysterectomy, removin only her uterus).. they removed her ovaries too.. 7-hr surgery.. why?.. because crzy doctors misdiagnosed her & the cancer metastasized w/in the period of wait (oh ya, they didn't even know it was cancer till operation day).. it spread all over her body & she needs to undergo another operation in the near future & chemo also.. early in the week, i was hopin to get some studyin done on thursday, then i wacked myself on the head thinkin u selfish brat..
anyhow, the kids came home after the football game.. josh announced that ryan's team won, which made ryan throw a tantrum because he wanted to be the first to talk about their victory.. so all this drama rama after i told the boys about tita san.. & freakin ryan had the nerve to say so i don't care if she does.. what's important is that i won the game.. appalled.. selfish brat (i guess it runs in the family).. out of anger & w/out thinkin, i blurted out oh ya.. if u ever get cancer, let's see who's goin to care.. grrr...
to alleviate some pressure my mom was feelin, i asked if i can sleep over in the hospital & take care of tita san.. as my mom & i entered the room, we saw her frail, limp, skinny body.. i just couldn't bare to see her that way.. imagine havin ur reproductive organs removed.. a newly-wed who had hopes of building a family of her own.. down the drain.. it was obvious the doc didn't inform her of what they removed.. she attempted a feeble smile.. this family surely amazes me.. amidst all the problems we're facing, a smile to bring some joy to others would always be plastered on our faces.. after my mom told her the diagnosis, all she could think of was her husband, my tito jonathan.. so hard..
my night at the hospital was all right.. bein the thoughtful, selfless person that my tita san is, she made sure i was comfortable & doin fine.. when, in fact, it was my duty to care for her.. i made sure all her needs were met.. talked to the docs to get the real dish & hunt down the nurses for extra supplies she needed.. the whole night i contemplated.. no sleep.. mere reflections of life & where it's headed.. earlier on i had told my mother, mama, our bodies are only temporary vessels.. and she replied and that's why, anak.. we should offer it to God.. humble ourselves among other people.. and simply love... simply love.. yes, that's what we're called to do -- love God & others..